YAY!!

Well, I have been working a little harder in some areas of my health and lifestyle change.  Such as really focusing on drinking more water, trying to cut out certain things that I know aren’t good, and such.  It’s the baby steps that I am hoping will get me there.  That and my new friend Joni 🙂

Also, GUESS WHAT!  I GOT A NEW LAPTOP!!!  It is FREAKING. AWESOME.  I am in L O V E ! ! !  Kenny got it for “us” for our anniversary.  We talked to the guy about what I do on the computer, and what he does on the computer, and found one that will suit us both.  I’m labled as “The Browser” and he is “The Gamer”  It’s a Sony Vaio, and in real terms, I don’t know if that’s good or bad, but no matter, because I’m happy, he seems pleased and I HAVE A NEW LAPTOP!  I can’t tell you how excited I am about this 🙂 

I got the girls these Littlest Pet Shop digital pets (Niff calls them Diginal Pets) and Jessica hasn’t put hers down since she got it 8 hours ago LOL.  We got all excited when it pooped.  Niff likes hers too, but she gets distracted a bit easier than Jess does.  I’m glad they like them though 🙂  They also picked out their own Easter dresses today.  They both did a great job and didn’t get any hoochie looking dresses. Jessie chose a yellow dress with red flowers on it, and a yellow t-shirt type bolero/jacket thing that goes with it.  Jennifer chose this cute little dress that’s white with pink and purple flowers on it, and the skirt part is… I’m not really sure what to call it.  It’s like the hem goes all the way to the waste, rather puffy-ish.  And it has a little bolero type jacket as well, a crocheted one, and it’s pink.  They didn’t want matching dresses, like I tried to push for.  They “don’t want to be twins”  LOL.  What can I say, I have two girls who are very different from each other 🙂

Monday is our 8th wedding anniversary.  In some ways, I think WOW! 8 years already~!?!?!?!  Then I think “Wow, it’s only been 8 years???”  Funny how that works.  How long have you been with your significant others??

I don’t really have much in knitting news because I haven’t really been knitting lately.  I’ve been crocheting a lot.  Little baby sweaters.  I have one done but for the buttons (I haven’t found some that I like for it yet) and the other I ran out of yarn and have to find the other ball that’s in my stash somewhere.  They work up quickly.  One is with sock yarn that I hated for socks, but it worked well for this.  The other just some acrylic that I have, I think Caron Simply Soft.  As usual, no pictures though 🙂  I really should be less lazy about posting pictures.

Do you like to read?  I got some new books.  First, let me tell you about my favorite book of all time.  It’s The Bridge to Terebithia by Katherin Paterson.  It’s now been made into a movie, of which I have no desire to see because the book was so incredible to me that a movie just might ruin it.  Who knows, I might break down and watch it.  It’s a young person’s book, I read it in middle school (maybe about the 5th or 6th grade) and it was the first book that really made me cry.  I bought it again the other day simply because I wanted to have it in my library of books and read it.  It only took a couple of hours.  It still made me cry, and I still love it.  The other books I got were What Dreams May Come by Richard Matheson.  I’m currently reading this one.  Some of you might have heard of the movie or seen it.  I have not, and am glad because the book is good, and again, I don’t want the movie to ruin it.  I just might, though, see this movie to see how they did it.  The third book I got is Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister by Gregory Maguire.  He also wrote Wicked and Son of a Witch.  Maguire is definitely different from other books I read, but his style intrigues me, and his stories are AWESOME to me.  I loved reading Wicked, and seeing why the wicked witch was the way she was from the Wizard of Oz.  Well, in his eyes, why she was that way anyway.  I also ordered a couple more of his books from half.com…Mirror, Mirror (take from Snow White) and Lost.  I’ll have to let you know if I like them.  What books do you all like to read?

Well, I should feed Matthew and try to put him back to bed.  🙂

I GOT A NEW LAPTOP!!!!

Published in: on February 23, 2007 at 5:30 am  Leave a Comment  

Upset

I’m so frustrated with myself.  I don’t know how I let myself get this huge. I MEAN FREAKING H U G E !  If you put my husband and three kids together on the scale, they MIGHT equal what I weigh.  Granted, my husband is 6′ 4″ and is only about 140, but the four of them together equal one me.  And I’m really upset about it, and don’t want to talk to anyone about it so I’m posting about it here.  That way, if I get the tears flowing, you don’t see it, and it’s ok.  If I talk about it, that might make the tears flow and someone would see it, and I don’t want that.  I’m not looking for sympathy.  Just a listener I guess.  And maybe someone to tell me to buck up and get over it and just lose the weigh 😉  Here’s what I have been doing so far: 

1.  Quit drinking soda.  I’ve read other people’s experience, and talked with others, and people have really shed the pounds once they quit drinking.  Within a few weeks they notice a difference of at least a few pounds.  It’s been over a month with no soda (except for maybe 1.5 diets, sporadically drank, not all at once) and I have not lost ONE. STINKING. POUND.  Not one.  And I don’t understand why.  I was quite the coke/pepsi consumer.  You’d think that would have made a difference.  I don’t feel any different.  I certainly don’t look any different.  And my clothes don’t fit better.  In fact, guess what?  I’ve GAINED weight.  Why?  WHY???  I’m not eating more to replace the soda.  I just don’t get it.

2.  Walking. I’ve been walking twice a day at least 4 days a week.  That’s 8 walks per week that are at least 20 minutes long, sometimes more.  And sometimes I walk more than that…if I throw in the extra walk to the post office or something, which I’ve done a few times.  And what about that 2 hour walk Niff and I took when the weather was great.  You’d think I’d notice at least SOMETHING happening from this.  But no.  My pants aren’t fitting better.  My measurements aren’t changing.  I was getting a little hungrier with the added exercise, but I didn’t over eat because of it.  I tried to drink water, or eat a small snack like a fruit or something.  Not some huge meal with dessert.  And you have to realize, I went from doing NOTHING to walking twice a day.  That was a huge jump for me.  I drove Jessica to school and drove there to pick her up.  Now I walk her there, regardless of what the weather is like, and walk her back, regardless of the weather.  Because it’s important to me to get in this exercise.  It was important to me to quit drinking soda.  I want to feel better.  I’ve not lost weight.  Not a pound, as I mentioned.  Since I had Matthew, only 9 months ago, I have, in fact GAINED 20 pounds. 

Why is it that other people can start exercising and notice at least a couple pounds or something different after a month.  And me? I gain.  I stop drinking soda.  I gain.  I try to eat better, nothing.  Sure, there are times when I want a cookie, and so I’ll eat one or two, not five or six.  I’m not going to deprive myself of a treat once in a while.  I’ve had my thyroid checked several times, so I know that’s not the issue.  So I’m not sure what it is.  I can walk more.  I have to eat a certain amount of food per day, according to my doctor at least 1800-2000 calories because I am still breast feeding nearly full time.  So a major dietery (dietary?) cut back isn’t an option.  I’m not going to start taking over the counter or prescription meds for weight loss because the long term effects are horrendous.  I don’t know what more to do.  I wasn’t expecting to lose 50 pounds in a month.  But one or two would have been nice.  Instead of a gain.  And I know that exercising can cause a bit of a weight gain because muscle weighs more than fat.  But wouldn’t I notice a difference in the way my clothes fit?

I guess I’m just really frustrated because I feel like I’m trying harder to accomplish something, and I just don’t see the effects from it. 

Published in: on February 6, 2007 at 5:31 am  Leave a Comment  

What a day!

This day is driving me CRAZY and it’s only 3:30 pm.  Kenny gets home from work tonight at 6:30 or so, and I am GOING OUT.  ALONE.  NO KIDS.  (Unless I have to take Matthew for feeding issues…he still won’t take a bottle, only a boobie).  And I have no idea where I’m going, but it will be out.  Maybe I’ll treat myself to a new book or something.  I could use a new book.  I’m on a yarn restriction, so that’s out.  I don’t really need any yarn right now anyway, I do have plenty.  And really, I don’t have anywhere to put new yarn.  I just had to put a ton of it back into storage. 

On a better note, I have been crocheting up a storm today.  I’m trying to go through all my yarn so that when we do move, I can get some new stuff LOL.  I’m going through all of my cotton crocheting up some baby bibs.  I started the first one last night, and I’m on number three now.  It’s similar to the bib in the Mason Dixon Knitting book, only it’s crocheted.  And one of them has no button.  Instead I crocheted the button hole and the end that is supposed to have the button instead has a ruffle, that you can just pull through the button hole to keep it on.  It’s pretty, and as soon as I get around to it, maybe I’ll take a picture or two to share it with you, along with some of my other FO’s of the year so far.

So any of you other moms that stay home with your kids…how do you do it?  How do you make ends meet if your husband doesn’t make a billion dollars?  I’ve really loved staying home with the kids, and I want to continue doing so for as long as I can, but honestly the only reason I have been able to so far is because we’ve been able to stay at my mom’s house, and that’s just not going to be an option forever (or for very much longer I hope.  I love my mom and all, but I want my own place… you know how it is.) 

Published in: on February 3, 2007 at 5:33 am  Leave a Comment